Hi, well I've been a hostess for over 2 years now because it's the only kind of job I can find, and I was hoping it would help me get rid of my shyness, but to be honest I dread going in to work everyday and interacting with strangers, my stomach feels like it's in a knot and I start to shake. I'm afraid of making mistakes or looking like a fool in front of customers and co-workers, especially now that we have secret shoppers and if we fail our jobs are at risk. All I do is think about work, even on my days off, and my first thought when I wake up is on work, and I start to count the hours before I go in.
It's gotten so bad that I've aged prematurely and at 20 have wrinkles and bags under my eyes, and before I started to work I looked a lot younger than my age (when I was 18 I was easily mistaken for a 15 year old a lot).
My boyfriend worries about me.
What would be some good alternative jobs for me? (I take public transportation, if that makes a difference).